I moved back to New York City nearly 20 years ago. I packed
all of my belongings into a small rented moving truck and drove north from the
sprawl of suburban Atlanta to the sprawl of New York City. It was early
November when I arrived at my mother’s house in suburban Briarcliff. The trees
rained yellow leaves like gold vermillion onto the damp,
black streets.
I came to New York to find literary fame and fortune and I’m
still fighting the good fight. My enemies are my own laziness and
self-doubt and the regular pressures of needing to make a living and feed a
family. I have friends who no longer write and are comfortable in their day
jobs. I have friends who have found great success as writers and published
books. They make me green with envy sometimes but I can’t scream that things
are unfair: they worked hard and have been more on the ball than I’ve been when
it comes to managing a career.
I sometimes doubt my abilities to put words to the ideas
coursing through our lives that will move people and help them see themselves
in greater things. I sometimes doubt my odds in gaining success in the creative
field and rising to the esteemed literary heights so widely celebrated.
What I do not doubt is my love of creativity and burning
need to produce good work. I am confident in my connection to the orgiastic
madness that powers the human animal and makes our Gotham such a powerful
crucible. I will never question my love of truth and the embrace of human
kind’s true carnal nature. I will never surrender my ability to be a black
flame helping fellow travelers navigate the cold dark realities of an
indifferent world.
Art and creativity make life worth living; it’s how we
express the truth of human existence as we struggle to understand it and find
our place in the world. I have been very fortunate to have friends who have helped
me indulge in reading James Dickey on whiskey-soaked
nights in the sultry summer night of Georgia, friends who have written poems
that have been turned into songs and that can still bring tears to my eyes to this day,
and friends who held Burns Night parties complete with
haggis where the party would come to a dead stop to read from the Bard of
Scotland.
As I struggled to get a handle on writing fiction, I
continued to write and publish poems, and my earliest successes have been with
publishing poetry. I have come to the realization that I may be better at
writing poems than writing fiction or non-fiction and that I at least owe the
form more time and attention than I have been giving it. Poems can be written
quickly and can express an idea in its rawest form. It can inspire by telling a
narrative story or not. Either way it echoes in the hearts of the reader who
feels inspired to do great things. I lapsed in recent years in writing them but
I have recently redoubled my efforts to write poetry every night. Last year I
also starting finishing and publishing one poem per week through Impolite Literature’s Web site.
This national poetry month, join me in reading poetry, in
understanding that poetry is the testament of our civilization. The future will
judge the worthiness of our times by our art and literature as much as by our
wars and monuments.
I hope to raise an army of warrior poets, to
make poetry part of the life of blood and iron that defines our existence on
Earth. Join me in making our world great by insisting poetry be a part of it. I
stand with sword-pen in hand.
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